Sunday, June 2, 2013

Ego and the I and Mine of meditation

Its is said on the path of self realization, eventually you will come too a destination, but when you have reached there then your journey really begins. The thoughts 'I am meditating, I am humble, I am virtueous' are the golden threads of ego. These too need too be dealt with then I the soul and God the Supreme soul will become one. "The greatest dancer of this age was Nijinsky. He went mad because he was born in the West; in the East, he would have become a Gautam Buddha. In the West there was no background to explain what was happening to him, and it was a weird experience -- while dancing... once in a while when he would forget himself completely, would become so much absorbed in the dance that there was only the dance and no dancer -- he would jump so high that it was against gravitation. No scientist had any explanation. Man cannot jump that high, it is simply not possible.
And that was not the whole story.

When he would come back down... anything when falling, the gravitation of the earth pulls it forcibly. But when Nijinsky would be coming back down, he would come so slowly... just like a dead leaf falling from the tree, moving slowly, or like a feather. That was even more difficult to explain.

And when people asked him, "What you do?" he said, "Whenever I try to do it, it never happens. Finally I give up, and then one day suddenly it happens -- but it happens only when I am not, when I am not the doer. It is something of the beyond."
So don't be worried.

If you are feeling silent, peaceful, loving... these are not the ways of the ego. The ego cannot feel silent, the ego cannot feel peaceful, the ego cannot feel loving.
Your meditation has ripened.
You have come to a maturity.
Rejoice, and be grateful.
Existence is very compassionate. If we are ready to open our hearts without holding anything back, then immense treasures become available to us.
In the beginning such doubts may arise: "Perhaps it is ego." Don't give a place to such doubts.
Remember: ego can create misery, ego can create anguish, ego can create hate, ego can create jealousy. Ego can never become a vehicle for the divine, it can never become the passage for the beyond"
. Osho