no matter how good and disciplined we are at our meditation and our search for spirituality and enlightenment, our negative subconscious will always arise like a hidden demon and try too attack our serenity and peace and truth. But take heart , this is part of the cleansing of the soul, deep meditation will shake the dirt from the soul and provide a very clean mirror for ourselves and for others. The aim is too become content and have faith in the process, because whilst dirt still does exist in the world it will make its way into our home. So don't become disheartened, the trick is also too learn from the process and not too keep making the same mistake again and again. Enjoy the process and you will begin too see a Garden of Flowers where once thorns and stones were